You see, I believe God has a great plan for my life. A plan that is bigger and greater than I can dream, if I give up control to him. Giving up control has been something that is not always easy for me. Once I was thrown into this cancer journey, I realized that in order to go through it gracefully and peacefully, I needed to give up complete control of my life to God. What does this mean? Giving up control to him means seeking Him daily through prayer and spending time in the Word daily. It means that I talk all of my decisions through with Him (via prayer). I am not on this journey solo, you see. He is there every step of the way and has actually designed this journey. In order to have perfect peace, I seek him.
He uses every part of me...every experience, every weakness, and every strength...to build something great. ("For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11).
One of Luke's favorite toys since he was around 2 years old has been his Lego duplo blocks. Luke loves every one of them--the red ones, blue ones, silly ones, small ones, big ones, and every other shape and color. He can create some great masterpieces using each one of them. One day as I was watching him build something with them, I had an epiphany. God looks at us like Luke looks at his blocks. We are His building blocks. It doesn't matter what type, shape, color or size. He loves us and can use us--every part of us--to create a great masterpiece.
|One of Luke's masterpieces with his blocks and track.|
When Luke first began playing with his blocks, they would often fall down. I must admit though, early on, the destruction was a bit intentional. Recently though, they get knocked down mostly as our one-year-old, Abbey enjoys knocking them down. But Luke rebuilds. And often, it is into something even greater than what he started with. This serves as a great reminder that no matter how frequently or how far we fall, He is always there. He is a God full of grace. He simply forgives us and helps us to rebuild once again. Usually into something bigger, better and stronger than before if we trust in Him and seek Him daily.
Sometimes life is going just as we desire, plan or think it should and then we get knocked down. Sometimes the hit is pretty hard (like with a cancer diagnosis). But, God is in control the entire time. He looks at what He has built and smiles upon it (Oh God restore us and smile down on us so that we may be saved. Psalm 80:3-God's word translation). Sometimes in order to make his masterpiece better, He has to knock some pieces down and add different pieces for improvement.
We are His building blocks. Though He has given us free will to make our own choices and we have our own strengths and weaknesses, he knows us inside and out and uses every piece of us and every journey in life to create a masterpiece.
Thank you Lord for using every piece of me. I know that even this cancer journey is being used to build a great masterpiece.
Colossians 1:16 (NIV): For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him.
1 Peter 1:6-7 (NIV): In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
1 Peter 4:11 (NIV): If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever.
James 1:12 (NIV): Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
My Favorite Psalm, Psalm 139:
O LORD, you have probed me, you know me: you know when I sit and stand; you understand my thoughts from afar. My travels and my rest you mark; with all my ways you are familiar.
Even before a word is on my tongue, LORD, you know it all. Behind and before you encircle me and rest your hand upon me. Such knowledge is beyond me, far too lofty for me to reach.
Where can I hide from your spirit? From your presence, where can I flee? If I ascend to the heavens, you are there; if I lie down in Sheol, you are there too. If I fly with the wings of dawn and alight beyond the sea, Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand hold me fast.
If I say, "Surely darkness shall hide me, and night shall be my light"—Darkness is not dark for you, and night shines as the day. Darkness and light are but one.
You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew; my bones were not hidden from you, When I was being made in secret, fashioned as in the depths of the earth. Your eyes foresaw my actions; in your book all are written down; my days were shaped, before one came to be. How precious to me are your designs, O God; how vast the sum of them! Were I to count, they would outnumber the sands; to finish, I would need eternity.
If only you would destroy the wicked, O God, and the bloodthirsty would depart from me! Deceitfully they invoke your name; your foes swear faithless oaths. Do I not hate, LORD, those who hate you? Those who rise against you, do I not loathe? With fierce hatred I hate them, enemies I count as my own.
Probe me, God, know my heart; try me, know my concerns. See if my way is crooked, then lead me in the ancient paths. (New American Bible Version)